Today is just like any other day when I would sit down to write for you, but something definitely feels different. I feel free, I feel more alive than ever and I am ready to reveal my heart, insecurities and a little about my childhood with you.
Deep breath for me as I pull back the curtain to where only few of my dearest most treasured friends have been.
Each of us have that one thing that keep us stuck in the darkness, the place where dreams do not live, the place where our true selves are caged. My “thing” was a deep-rooted insecurity that I developed as a little girl. My darling mother I believe experienced similar lessons from her mother, which she believed should have been passed down to me.
I now know that my mother was trying her best to protect me, however, I wished that I didn’t receive this particular lesson as it has plagued me with fear, insecurity, paranoia and rage. But, like all lessons they are our greatest teacher and bring us closer to our true selves.
My mother’s lesson was that I should never introduce my boyfriends to any of my pretty friends because he would always leave me for them. I was taught that I wasn’t good enough for my partner, that my beauty, my soul, my heart, my personality would never be quite enough to keep my beloved.
I was taught that I needed to see other women as a threat, to keep my friends at a distance and to never allow my boyfriends to meet any of my friends. This lesson left me in a confusing world and I had no idea how to keep up with this impossible demand. I had no idea how to juggle all these emotions and fears and still keep my secret hidden.
I realised that something was not right with this lesson and that none of my other friends got the same lesson from their mothers. Friends would go on weekends away with their boyfriends and other female friends, they would all have dinner together…WHAT?! WAIT! I would want to scream at them, don’t you know that men will leave you for prettier women? Yes, it’s true my mother told me this, so it must be true.
Saying this now, I get furious, delirious with rage and yet a sadness comes over me that I wasted so many beautiful years living in constant fear and paranoia. However, the silver lining is that I have gone on to teach women how to overcome their fears, lack of self-worth and how to live their light and truth.
Our parents are doing the best they can and I love my Mum! It is so important to always show compassion towards our parents and try to understand why they did or said certain things.
I remember sharing this with a close friend and her reaction to a few of my stories both validated how I was feeling and also made me want to change my thoughts significantly.
When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.
Louise Hay became my teacher through her beautiful book called “You Can Heal Your Life”. This set a series of events in place for me and I am so eternally grateful that I do not live with these same fears. They show up every now and then to check on me and to see if I really am the Real me, however, he rarely visits now.
How My Life Changed!
I was so tired of living with this constant stress and fear! A dear friend of mine suggested that I see a Life Coach that she was seeing at the time. Just the sweet way that she put it to me and how she guaranteed me that this woman would be able to help put my mind at ease and I made the phone call.
I formed a beautiful trusting connection with my Life Coach and we were able to work through my history, upturn each stone and find all the darkness that was hiding within. I did all the homework she set for me because I refused to be defeated, I focussed on freedom and how I would feel once this darkness became my light.
I can not thank my Life Coach enough for her dedication, warmth, non-judgement and caring support. Her love and light were my beacon and I kept my gaze on that light whilst I was out in the stormy ocean.
Laugh at the Ego’s tiny mad ideas.
– A Course In Miracles.
I have been laughing at my Ego’s tiny mad ideas and they are now small and hilarious to me.
What’s holding you back?
What is holding you prisoner in darkness? Where do you feel stuck in life? What memories, beliefs are outdated that need to be uprooted?
I became a Life Coach because it is something that came easy to me and because I knew that I wanted to heal women’s lives. All my life the universe has been preparing me to be a teacher, to heal, to inspire and to live a life on purpose.
Wether it was graduating with a Psychology degree, learning some hard lessons, having a friend change my life by giving me Louise Hay’s book, each of these events have led me to you.
If something has stirred inside you and you feel ready to take the next step towards the light then Life Coaching may be for you. I would love nothing more than to walk along side of you while we work together in healing and creating a life you are excited about.
You’re ready to work with me if:
+ You’re ready to go after your dream life, however, you lack motivation.
+ Each time you take a step towards your greatness you withdraw and retreat and stay in your comfortable place.
+ You want to live confidently with fearless intention knowing that you are the creator of your life.
+ You desire freedom, to be fierce, a risk taker and desire to scream “to hell with it I’m a brave warrior goddess and I can handle anything!”.
+ You’re ready to commit to a brighter, fuller more joyous life.
+ You’re ready to JUMP, however, you want help building your wings!
You may have a kindling fire within you, but let’s get it blazing!
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